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Jan. 30th, 2009

unfinished

 Greetings, anonymous readers. -- (*Note: I'm not really under the illusion that anyone reads this or takes interest in my personal affairs, but I do love to write and indulge in my own vanity by writing pages about my so called life.) I'm sitting in bed at the moment awaiting my boyfriend to show up. I haven't written in a while, I tend to write more when I'm at university and procrastinating my assignments. When I opened this page I had all sorts of witty remarks and social commetary to put out into the blogosphere but it has fled from my brain like heathrow traffic. (- Realise that similie fails, heathrow traffic is impossible and unmoving.) Wow, 5 lines of absolutely nothing. I really should try to make an effort to post something everyday - the only way to improve writing is to write. And God, do I want to write. It's the only talent I have! My friend managed to get work experience at Channel 7 - jealousy. I'm sure I could get some kind of work experience but I don't even know what part of the media I want to go into. I guess that doesn't matter at this stage. Anyway, I'm ranting. 

Am having some family tensions at the moment - have met the most amazing guy (above mentioned boyfriend) but our families are a little bit opposed to our union seeing as he is muslim and I am not. Personally it hasn't effected our relationship at all but our parents insist that "later on in life it will matter" I don't want to be naive here and say "love conquers all" because of course cultural differences will become apparent if matures into something a little more serious. I don't know, some days I feel like I want to marry him and other days I don't want to get too ahead of myself. 

Anyway I must dash -  I will complete this entry later on tonight. x

Dec. 7th, 2008

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 sweetest thing today.
F wanted to hang out, and i'm like, nahh i'm really tired i'll be boring. & he's like, dude. I just wanna be with u, even if we just sit on the couch and do nothing. 

lovee. & he brought me flowers. =D pretties. we watched tv. 

and then, I wanted to go to sleep, so he waited till I fell asleep before he went home. 

He said I was silly for thinking i'd be boring. 


=D 


Nov. 24th, 2008

Shapes & Colours


Zomg blogging! I haven't written in ages; been to busy actually having a life. Today, however, I'm just sitting around at home and have nothing better to do. It's been an overly dramatic couple of months.... now I find myself left with the dregs of a relationship swilling around in the bottom of a teacup. Without sounding too melancholy, it was fun while it lasted, I guess. I keep ending up in these fucked up situations, I wish I could have a normal, nice relationship where the two people don't go out of their ways to destroy each other. That might be nice. Then again, I'd probably get bored with nice. So I can't win either way. Relationships are complicated =[. I think I have to just cut all ties from this previous relationship (should I say current? Is it even really over?) so I can move on and actually do something good for myself....

I got a new job, which I haven't started yet. I'm excited about it, I guess. It'll be good to actually have stuff to do, since I finished uni I've been bored///excessively partying :P. The partying is good. But I'm slowly getting more and more worn out haha. Working in Brisbane will be fun but the thing is my sister will be working on the coast  so I get to be by myself. The only person I know who's staying in Bris over the holidays is F; and that doesn't really work with my cutting-off-all-communication with him plan. I don't even know if I will. I keep meaning to & then we'll hang out and I don't. He probably wouldn't care. . . . .

I'm going back to France after university for like a year. I miss europe! I'm going to the USA next year, if I ever get this fucking application finalised. Hopefully it will be done by next week. Am I just filling my life with travel plans to escape reality? Scratch that, now is not the time for philosophical reflection.

Exhaustion is winning, I'm going to bed.



Au revoir.

xx


Aug. 23rd, 2008

I'm totally blogging this shit

Dear God I feel like shit today. Note: this is all self inflicted; seeing as I drank fuck knows how much vodka last night. My memory loss disturbs me. Usually I feel too sick to carry on drinking before I get to that stage   but no, not last night. I always effing forget that my liver likes to call in sick and not do it's job. I have one of those slacker livers that could be compared to a hobo leeching off the dole. The condition has a name, but I forget. It's a boring medical anomaly that has virtually no symptoms save for the slow process of toxins. Medically I really shouldn't drink at all, but fuck it.

I hate myself right now. I vaguely remember crying and being sick and getting a cab home. Longest cab ride of my life, fucking $20. the last three dollars was because the mean cabbie left the meter running as I opened the door and threw up. Hot. Actually he was really nice, offering me water and stuff.

I'm praying that the phone doesn't ring - (A) because it's so shrill I think my head would actually explode, and (B) it will most likely be my mum and I really don't want to mumble my way through that conversation.

I think I'm just gonna blindly watch tv for the rest of the day. Fuck doing assignments.

So this being the most boring, self-pitying post I've ever written, I shall leave you now.

E xx
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Aug. 13th, 2008

Adventures in Life & Fiction

Well I'm a little socialite right now. I went to GLC's housewarming party last night and while the party itself was a bit of a bore, I met this guy who we'll call... F. (I am _so_ creative with my little acronyms.) Anyway, F was cool, and he called me just now (which was a bit weird, I guess) and apparently we're doing something, sometime. I wasn't really listening.

A is still in America and has a new boyfriend who she delights in telling me about their sexual exploits. The other day she told me I really should go and flirt with someone because I was "sexually ready". WTF? She's my best friend but the stuff she comes out with is just mad.

New development with DMG who I haven't spoken to in months - All of a sudden she starts talking to me about how I hurt her the last time I saw her (which I was only semi consciously admitting to myself) and then she's like well let's meet up and talk about it. And I REALLY dont' want to. As mean as it sounds, i'm fine not being friends with her. She's become annoying. Somehow we went from being so close to virtually hating each other - but I guess the other girls' opinions of her don't really help - I spend so much time with them I guess it's natural for it to rub off on me..... meh.

Going to the EKKA tomorrow I think for the first time ever, to see the fireworks!! Going to stay at BM's house afterwards, with the girls. Anyway, I have to go finish making dinner and listen to my sister complain... I wish I could keep a digital tally of how many times she rants on, like on the chasers! It would make a cool little dinging sound and I would laugh..... meh.



P.S. Have started writing a vampire novel - meant to explain more about this, but save it till next time. K BAII X

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